User: Tadpole2008

Hey Joe

My brother Jack told me it is more imortant to be honest that it is to be popular, and more important to be right than popular. He is both, I think, and seems to have plenty of friends. I think that is where you are coming from too. I trust my mated with anything, they trust me, and we don't tell lies, at least hot to each other. I think when you start to think you can see the truth of what others say about you, and that can hurt. It hurt me. I hope I'm not treating ypu like the boys in the center do, becaise although I'm like them in many ways I'm better than that. I have parents who will do all for me and more than the staff at the center could do. But it is hard when people tell you stuff you don't want to hear, and don't believe, and then when you think about it you realize is true about you.

Jack has changed and helped me a lot, but this week I found he is still naughty like me, and even got the belt. He and me have something planned together. We'll both get the leather if we are found out. But we won't be. We are nor bad kids, but we do want to have fun. How do you keep positive? You say I have potential, but don't all boys? I think I am a good kid, but one who wants a bit more excitement than being good all the time. And I don't like my parents telling me what to do. I'm not a baby

I couldn't help myself. Even as I spoke I knew I was going to be whipped, not just a licking. But first I was made to suck a bar of soap, then they washed my mouth a bit so my saliva tasted of soap. As Dad whipped me it felt likeI was being skinned alive. nad I had tathorrible soapy saliv.Dad never done that before. He made me promise to clean up my mouth, and I want to anyway now I sen Jenny.

But I did ttalk to Dad, told him I was sorry. It was hard at first butafter that Dad made it easy for me did all the running, said he was proud of me, how it must hard neen hard for me to cme and say what I said, and made me feel good and warm inside,. And as he hugged me he said "isn't a pat on the back better than one lower down" And I know what he meant.

We didn't have a winner between me and Jack. It wasn't that kind of bonding. But we had alot of fun together, like only boys can. At least Jack kows I'm not a baby.

Good to know you been here ad remember, and guess you know moreabot boys than most. I;m still going to have fun, but set some limits so I get licked less. I don't want Jenny to know I get liced, even thogh I haven't talked to her yet. I chickened out at lunch time today with my frinds watching, and waked straight past her. They say I have the backbone of a ckicken! But, for sure I am growng uo. I can see that there is fun, which is fun, and there is fun that has consequences which are not fun. A smart kid gets more of the first and less of the second. I'm smart enough to know tham and, I think, smart enough to do that. Getting licked isn't fun at all

I can't rely on my friemds to help me keep my mouth clean, but if I don't I'll probab;y be whpped until the belt or my butt wears out. You ever do anything several times. before Dad REALLY blistered you so bad you made sure you didn't do the same again? Were there thinhgs that it took several doses of the belt to learn. Jack used to get the belt for his sassy mouth, I get it for swearing and cussing

Speak to you soon

Tadpole

Hi Joe

When I read your e mail you were not my favorite person. I thought that as a friend, even an older friend would see my point of view. I thought "what does Joe know? He's a good kid, or not a kid at all, and he has goody goof friends". That is how I felt. That packed a pretty poweful message, and said some stuff I was't happy to hear. I read your post to Jack, and you said you wasn't too impressed with me. Well, Joe, that much is obviuos.

But underneath all that, Joe, I AM a good kid, or if I am not I want to be good. You think I LIKE being licked? NO NO NO! I wish Dd would retire the bet, and if that means Jack don't get licked either. it'd stil be worth it. But I'm still a little kid, Joe, and I want to have fun. That is what kids do. Take a few risks and see what happens, and try new stuff to see if it is fun.

So maybe talking more resposible already. I don't FEEL any different, but you are right; a few butt lickings does make you think different, in your words, licked butt improves brain power. Maybe that is why Dad talks with us right after a licking. Did your Dad do that, or leave you with time to think so you could work out the lesson for yourself?

I only get my face slapped if I'm too angry, or shouting or our of control, because although it makes me cry, it stops that behavior dead, then and there. It is sometimes followed by pain on the other cheeks. This time I had overloaded my mouth with Fs, and Bs, and Bs, and SH, and Cs and every other bad word I'd ever heard, Would heve been wise to have buttoned my mouth. But slaps happened more when Iwas littler

It was this next part I found hardest to take, so I thoigh about it a long time, Am I really on a poor kid soapbox with a chip on my shoulder? Thinking about it Jack has had a good few kickings, I learn from that Didn't meke same mistakes, but make ones all of my own, You think I could learn from himfhow to get dewer lickings like he does. I guess it might be worth a try. If he's willing to help. He's tried to fo that before, but I was too proud to take it. I'm nor too proud of myself any more. It hurt me everyone saying it was all my own fault, and that you were not impressed I could hear in that all the things Dad says he licks me for starting with being arrogant and going on from there. I think maybe dad idn't too impressed either' You say there is afine line between getting away with stuff and being punished, and Jack is one side and I am the other, but I don;t havo move that far to cross the ine. You don;t have an older brother bur think hohard it is to admit he is right ad he knows better, My whole life I been trying to avoid that. BUt you are right. I get too many big boy butt spanking like the little kid I've act like. Guess that isn't what Dad looks forward to as he comes home from work. I know you are right, that Dad would rather hug than spank. but for that I'll have to work reallly hard, and make big chages in my life. You say Jack has already done that? For sure, he is licked kess than me.

All I know is this. I have a choice. Wether I clean up my mouth, like the smart kid I think I am, and act more like an adult than a kifd, eve at my age. or let Dad do the same job, exercizing that wide belt accross my little boy bottom. I know which is the easier choice, I haven't told Dad I am sorry yet, but I talked to Grandpa about it, and he told me about how Dad was punished as a boy, that he's had many of the same problems as me, and he would understand. He said, "tell your Dad you are sorry, and he will do the rest". So that is what I am going to do, before Dad gets out the ivoy soap grandpa told me abot ("think what soapy saliva tastes like, Tadpole") I want to grow up to be the best I can be, and if Dad could do it, so can I

Jack has some off his high and mighty "I know it all" horse, and is really helping me now. And last night we had a boys only bonding session. That was cool. I am sure you can guess what we did. I know I need Jack. You think he needs me? I don't think so.

Talk to you soon

Tad

Hey Joe

In my book a guy who pulls you up and says "you got it wrong kid, start thinking" has brought you up with a jolt. Maybe a wake up call. Whatever. It makes you stop for a moment and that doesn'r need to be your Dad, and unless you want it reinforced with pain (like when Dad slapped me accross th eface when I was having a tantrum) it might be better from a friend than from your DAd. your Dad!

But your right. I got a good Dad. Well he is good most of the time, except he pcks on me and don't pick on Jack. He gets away with so much. But yes, I think he does care how I turn out. He says that and a whole lot of other stuff each time I am licked. Which is quite often. Any time I do anything somehow he finds out. The more I think about the more I think perhaps I should't have been in Dad's study in the first place- I know it is out of bounds which is why I went in there, and I suppose just being in there was enough to get me licked even if nothing had happened. But I was unlucky to break the yardstick oor I would.t have been caught, But if I am goung to be caught it was sort of lucky I'd broken he yardstick and was spaked with that. You say you moved on from that at a younger age, and in any case it wasn't anything like a cane might have been, Dad could have blistered me worse that he did, Gues he though giving me a stirng in my butt might focus my mind, and remind me what happens to disobedient boys who break rules (no pun intended) Ya'll I thnk I'm a normal, cool kid pretty good most of the time, but sometimes too much of a smat moutg and a smart as.s for his own good. That is why I get licked.

I thought it was the pain that hurt at the time, but realky it was my ago that took the worse bruising. I thought I was a big guy, and like you say Dad thought I was a big guy to, too big for my britches, so as well there is not a lot to see, except that I am a young boy, a young teenager.. And that is how I feel too. Do even if Dad went easy on my butt, and I think maybe he did, overall he hurt me more thba just the pain. Ego is fragile and an arrogant boy needs his ego cut down from time to time (so Jack told me. He thinks he knows everything) I think I knowwhat tough love means. It means loving your parents, respecting them even when it seems hard even when, for example, when they lick you. Is that what it means for you? No, I mean for that yardstick and Das's wide leather belt to be reritred for ever real soon. Jack says I got plemty of lickings to come yet, but reckons he is through.

I DO do it because my friends do it, and sometimes no other words will do. I've heard Jack talk bad to. But I agree that just because they do doesn't mean I HAVE to. But they do and I do. But I'm beginning ti see it isn't cute or adult to cuss- I never heard Dad swear- wl once I hardy him say "bloody kids" mraning me and Jack. Soap and leather. I hope not. Cut up and fed to alligators? i hope not even more. And I don't want Dad to skin me alive either. So, I have to make a choice ad I do'nt really want any of them. But I kmow which one i gotta take. If I can take my freinds with me then good, but it I have to find goody goody freinds with no street cerd, not so goo. How you are seen my otherss oes matter. Maybe having a cool butt matters more.?

I'd feel shy going up to Dad and saying sorry DAd.I know he'd put down the paper and we'd have to talk about what I was sorry for, and why I was sorry, snd I couldn't do that, since I hardly kow why. I didn't know why it did and do stupid stuff either. Are you saying it is up to me if I want to change, and up to me to prove to Dad and myself that Iwant to do better and can do better? Maybe that is tough love is tough love

talk soon

Tad

Bryce

See you in no underwear (commando) or in nothing at all? That'd be cool :-). That's what I do with my friends.:-)) We jus like beig naked together,:-D an' I still look at other guys to see if they got any underwear on:-)

Happy Guy?

Tad

He Joe

You brought me back to earth with a jolt. I was feeling kind of sorry foir myself, almost cheated, and then you come in and tell me wasn't unlucky. Just a naughty kid who broke a rule and got a butt licking he deservesg. You think that made me feel better? But you did make me think, Maybe Joe is right. Maybe I am just making up excuses. And when I try and see it from Dads point of view my line if thinking just doesn't stand up. Yiu may think I;m asmart kid, Joe, but it fook a good hard licking to get that straightened out.

Maybe a cane would hurt more. I don't know but Dad laid so many swats on my butt. I'm to tall to go over his knee, so I am usualy draped over whatever furniture will raise my butt tighest usually my desk chair, anld usually bare butt too.. GDad just rained down the swats until it felt like my butt was on fire. Thing about the yardstick was that although it hurt while I was getting it the pain didn't last. I didn't tell Dad that. I wonder if he knew?

I was thinking I hadn't even been that naughty, and Dad went over the top, but then Joe says that is bullsh.it, and I knew I got what I had comg, which sounds like you think I had np excuse at all,and what Dad did wasfair and [reasonable. thaqt sounds like Dad talking , bot like sonewho rememebers how much lickings hurt I didn't thinkso at the time, but I now think Dad used the yardstick because he KNEW the pain wouldn't lasy. Do you think that is likely? If I get licked for breaking the yardstick or breaking a rule doesn't make a lot of difference to me. They hurt the same. When you say you'd tan my butt it sound like more than dad did, Do you think he went easy on me.

I did own up to breaking the yardstick, so i am not sure what you mean by own up to resoumsibility. What I think you mean is accepting that it was my faukt rather than trying to blame others or call it bad luck. That is what Dad said to me, and said next time, if there is a next time he'd do more than just talk about it. I don't have tio guess what he means about that. All in all you seem to be saying it was my fault I was licked, and however many licks Dad gave me I deserved all of them, Am I right? A kid who breaks a rule has to pay the price,and in spanking household he'll pay the peice on his bottom.

I am not making it ac ontest between me and Jack, but hes eems to go scott free when I get licked. He seems to slide away just before we are caught. I don't thingkI swear and cuss much, no more thsn other boys. But you talking about taking responsiblity for what I do. But I'm a kid, and kids have fun. That what we do Joe. But I quess I do have some responsibilty for what I say,and if I am strong I can do it without my freinds, without the soap and without the paddle. I know if Dad hears me again it will be worse than last time. He said he's skin me!

Tad or Tadpole is better than Terry. i hate the name and not even my paretns ot teachers call me that

Maybe next time we talk you'll be a bit more encouraging. But please understand, I don't set out to be naughty, break the rules or swear. It just happens. I think I ought to tell Dad I., sorrry, since I am,but Idon't know how t start.

ttyl

Tad