Kissin' cousins

I have and still do have sex with my female cousin who is a year older than me. We always took showers together when we were younger and when I was 14 we were in the shower (we were going somewhere and only had time for 1 shower, so we both hopped in.) Well, ive always been physically attracted to my cousin, so one day in the shower she was soaping up and i couldnt resist. I made a move and felt her a$$. She looked at me and didnt object. I then started rubbing my hands all over her and started to explore. Well, she grabbed my d!ck and started to rub it. Didnt take long for us to both be aroused. So we got out of the shower and went to her room. She had condoms they gave her from school (some be safe program.) Well, we ended up trying it and we loved it. Even now, 2 years later, we're still doing it. But it's purely for sexual satisfaction, not a relationship way. But we love each other as family and we trust each other. So me and her have sex whenever possible and now shes on the pill.

I heard this story a long time ago at this same place and i still think it is hot because i wish my cousin and i would do this. She is so VERY VERY hot and i don't know what i should do about my sexual feelings about her. i think of her so much. what do i do? is this weird? she lives in a different state and we were all at my grandmas for the holidays. i loved being around her, she is gorgeous. what do i do?