have you ever.........?

I've never cut myself or thought about killing myself or anything, but I have been raped.

I'm a 16 year old boy now. A sophomore.

It started when I was a freshmen at 14. I was walking home from school one day and three juniors drove up along side me in a car, stopped and forced me to get in. The two that weren't driving were trying to touch me in dirty places. I resisted and they beat the crap out of me. The driver pulled down a long driveway and they all raped me and forced me to suck them. I was crying during most of it and at the end they drove me back to around where they picked me up and told me that if I ever told anyone that they'd do it again.

A couple months passed, I saw them around school. I didn't tell anyone. And deep down... I found myself fantasizing about it.

Around 5 months after the rape, I made a fake profile on Myspace pretending to be someone from school. I messaged one of them saying "I know what you did to _ and I'm telling the police." The next day after school, two of them approached me and yelled at me for telling or whatever and they forced themselves on me again. I put up a "fight" pretended that I didn't like it. And then afterward, I told them it was me that made the profile and contacted them. We talked, worked something out.

Now the three of them "rape" me like once a month or so. It is consensual, still a little rough, but we all get something from it. I really enjoy it. A sexual fantasy come true. It has been over a year, I'm 16 now, two of them are 18, one 17. They'll be graduating next year... I hope atleast one of them sticks around the area because I'd love to continue.

wow dude i think you need help. you are like really $%!@ed up. ok so what if your gay but enjoyed being raped thats just creepy. think suicide

Don't knock it 'til you try it. We all have our fantasies.

that is true we all do have our fanatasies but yours are $%!@ing gay. im speaking the truth when i say think suicide now cares about a homosexual who likes getting raped by other guys. that is just flat out creepy go get a life homo.

Your response just REEKS of intelligence.